Saturday, August 29, 2009

It's been one of "those" weeks!

You know the kind.....the week that just won't end. The week that makes you wonder why you even bothered to leave the comfort of your bed at all! The kind of week that makes you just want to get into your car and drive......and keep driving until you are as far away as one person can get in the whole 20 minutes that you actually get to yourself!

Interested in my pity party? No? Well, I'm inviting you anyway.....

1. My friend Robbi died of ALS on Wednesday. I can't believe how sad I am. The disease began to manifest itself in February of this year. She suffered a bout with the flu but was not able to shake the fatigue. By April, she was having speech and balance problems. They had given her a preliminary diagnosis of Guillain Barre Syndrome. She had a spinal tap and they discovered through analysis of spinal fluid that she did NOT have Guillain Barre. They thought she might be suffering from a malignant brain tumor.....Cat Scan was clear. As time went on, they came to the conclusion it was ALS...mostly by a process of elimination. She was positively diagnosed on June 18. She deteriorated quickly but was still quick witted and sassy until about an hour before her death. Her mother and brother were with her when she died. Thankfully, I was able to talk with her on her birthday (July 31). A year ago, I thought cancer was the worst thing that a person could be diagnosed with. I was wrong.

2. Sometime in the early morning hours on Tuesday, Olivia woke up with an earache. To make a long story short....she had a raging ear infection! As a matter of fact, the pediatrician noted several blisters on her eardrum. Sigh.....more antibiotics.

3. Sometimes, I hate Facebook. In the last month, I've been in 4 very heated political "discussions" with people that I thought I respected and who I thought respected me. Apparently, the divisions that exist in this country now are just too wide to compromise. While I attacked the issues and called people on the carpet, these people personally attacked me. I am an "angry person who thinks I'm better than anyone else. I also can't seem to show any compassion when someone is at their hour of need". Ordinarily, things like those don't bother me....but they did this time. I feel so bad that I come across this way sometimes. I truly don't mean to. I think sometimes I just get caught up in the emotion of it all and I can't seem to find that thin line between anger and passion.

4. Bank of America just called tonight. There has been "suspicious" activity on Dan's Visa Debit Card. After much research, yes....someone was very busy in HARRISBURG, PA spending almost $1000 of our money at the local Kmart. WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH PEOPLE?? Luckily, this issue has been resolved....although Dan needs a knew Debit card now. Do these people have consciences?

5. My good friend in California was in a car wreck. She is ok but there is almost $5000 damage done to her car. There is a lot going on in her life right now...she doesn't need this.

6. I am a total failure as a mother....lately. One of my kids (Her name begins with an "A") is having some behavioral problems right now and I think I'm just making things worse. I've got to find another way with her because what I'm doing now just isn't working for either of us.

7. The laundry is beyond out of control. I keep thinking that if I just ignore it, it will go away. I managed to wash one load yesterday...and then promptly forgot about it. Therefore, I need to re-wash them. If I had just done it right the first time......

I could go on and on. Ok, pity party is over now. Tomorrow, I will try to amend this seemingly "sympathy seeking" post with one about all of the blessings God has given me!


Aussie Therese said...

oh Nancy. I'll come to your pity party. It has been a bit of a tough week here too. I finally had to post and ask for advise about literacy for Amelia because doing literacy this week was just horrible. I felt like a failure too.

Tomorrow is another day. Our washing has about 5 loads waiting to be done. That doesn't even cover the folding.

Have a hug from me and I hope next week is better.


Therese said...

I'll always come to your pity party because you have been to enough of mine!!! Sorry for the rough week. If it's any consolation, I have the same "discussion" problem (but you know that!) AND I am having the same issues with a little boy whose name starts with "M"...


scmom (Barbara) said...

I've had weeks like that too, and I feel your pain, friend.

Frizzy said...

Nancy, I am here too. I'll stand by you through good and bad. That's what friends do. Facebook can be the devil! I am convinced of it. The loss of a friend is horrible and that alone is tough to take. Top it off with the other issues like an ear infection and a mother's worry. That makes for a rough day, week, month. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.

Mary333 said...

After that kind of week you need all the sympathy you can get! I am sorry about your friend Robbi, that alone can make things hard on a person.As for the facebook - good for you for speaking up! I'm sure you are a good mother,you have a big heart. Laundry...well, if it makes you feel any better I'm behind too!

Anonymous said...

I am sorry about your friend Robbi, Nancy. May she rest in peace.

Don't worry about the pity party. We all hold them now and again. I don't mind being invited to yours at all.

I hope that this week is tons better for you.

Tracy said...

aw Nancy, I'm just so sorry about the loss of your friend, this is so tragic.
I know exactly how you feel about facebook sometimes, I've found some of the same situations with people I thought I knew.

I pray that tomorrow is a better day that is followed by a better week!
You are in my prayers:)

~ Judy ~ said...

May your friend rest in the peace of the Heavenly Father forevermore...I am so sorry for your loss and sorrow.
You have been to the foot of the Cross this week Nancy...CLING TO IT to get through! You can do it!
You are NOT a failure as a mother...not even "lately" are a beautiful, kind, devoted, strong, faith-filled, loving mother who have children that emanate the JOY OF CHRIST!
Rest in Him...He knows what it's like to lose a close friend, He knows what it's like to be called radical and crazy for His beliefs...He knows what it's like to have children that don't behave...and He knows what failure feels like too, in the sense that He knew from the start that ALL would not be saved.
And remember that post from benmakesten the other day:
God never asks for any more than we can give.