Monday, December 6, 2010

Very Sad

This has been such a wonderful, festive day here in the Widener house that I hesitate to end it on such a negative note, but, I had to post this....

Elizabeth Edwards life drawing to a close.

This news has made me very sad.  While I am NOT a supporter of John Edwards (never have been and never will be), I have always admired Elizabeth and her determination to fight this disease.  She has handled it with grace and style.  I am sad that her life is coming to a close at such an early age...I am sad that she has had to deal with the infidelities of her spouse in addition to fighting a physical battle.  I am sad that modern medicine was not able to overcome the ravages of these out-of-control cells.  Damn.

She was first diagnosed with breast cancer back in November of 2004, then the cancer returned in 2007.  She has lived my greatest fear.  My oncologist once told me that breast cancer most commonly recurs somewhere between the 2nd and 3rd year.  THIS IS WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW!  You have no idea the fear that engulfed me when I read the above headline.  You.seriously.have.no.idea!

I realize that it is very dangerous to compare yourself to the cancer journey of someone else.  I do not know (at the molecular level) how her cancer works and grows.  But I do know that it metastasized to her rib, her lung, her hip...and most recently her liver.  My heart hurts for her, and for her family.  May God be with her in a special and close way during these last steps of her journey.  May she find the peace that passes all understanding.  May the closeness of her family and friends bring her comfort and joy this Christmas.

If I could see her face to face, I would say THANK YOU, ELIZABETH for fighting the good fight!  For being an inspiration to me and for smiling through it all!  God Bless You!


I don't know....maybe I need to change the name of my blog....I'm just not feeling very unafraid lately.  Sigh.

8 comments:

Jill said...

While I don't know what it's like to have cancer, I understand the feeling of dread. I'm sorry for Elizabeth and I'm sorry for such a reminder to you. Many prayers.

Therese said...

Dear friend, I pray for you, I pray for her, I pray for my SIL (whose 2 year check came back clear)...many hugs!

Jessica of Faustina Farm said...

While the other side of the coin is more real to me, it is my belief that your name represents you still. Sometimes it is just as courageous to act "as if" without actually feeling it.

Esther G. said...

Mrs. Edwards has had many crosses to bear. I am praying for her and her family.

Mum2eight said...

((HUGS)) and prayers for you Nancy. You may feel afraid of many things but I see a women of true faith.

Abbey said...

If you haven't had it, the "C" word is something you can only imagine. How does one deal with knowing their days are numbered? I always tell people that I want my death to be sudden and unexpected. I am so weak; if I had a greater faith, surely I would be as gracious as Elizabeth is and has been through so much adversity in her life. "The Red Window" is going to miss it's owner and curator.

Peace & Love,
Abbey ♥

Mary333 said...

I am praying for you, Nancy. May God bless you with his peace. You have been through a lot and you are VERY courageous. I will pray for Elizabeth, also.

Owner of Homeschool Faith and Family Life Website said...

My dear and wonderful friend...how I wish I were there to give you a great big hug and let you know how BLESSED we are for every single moment we have with YOU! "Jesus, I TRUST in You"...Your cancer is NOT back...so think of THAT on this Gaudete Sunday! It is NOT back.
Let's not fear that it will come back...let's REJOICE that it is NOT back. I love you Nancy!