I'd like to ask you all to remember me in your prayers over the next several days. I'm scheduled for my re-staging PET Scan on February 8th at 7:30am. As it gets closer and closer to the day, my anxiety level slowly increases. In addition to that, I have not been feeling well lately and whenever I experience new or strange symptoms, I'm always a little wary.
I'm hoping that the problems I'm experiencing right now are medication related. If I could just learn to deal with issues as they come, I'd be a lot better off. Instead, I do my best to live in denial for some things and just pretend that everything is fine.
I'm sure that part of the reason I'm feeling so poorly is that I'm not sleeping well. I've always been a night person and it seems that I'm still awake after midnight most of the time. My husband thinks that if I could just GO TO BED, turn off all the lights and the TV, I might be able to slow my mind down enough to get some rest. I know he's right....but habits are hard to break, and, a girl with panic attacks has got to do what a girls gotta do!
Some other factors that are contributing are....my weight, stress, too much caffeine, work, and a recent upper respiratory infection that is STILL hanging around. Put all this together with the worry of my upcoming scan and the fact that I am prone to depression....and you end up with a terrible mess! Yep, that's me right now!
The thing is, I KNOW that God is in control! I really do know this. But for some reason, this knowledge doesn't always bring me comfort. And so, I beg you for your prayers. Thank you!