Thursday, January 27, 2011

Prayers Please!

I'd like to ask you all to remember me in your prayers over the next several days.  I'm scheduled for my re-staging PET Scan on February 8th at 7:30am.  As it gets closer and closer to the day, my anxiety level slowly increases.  In addition to that, I have not been feeling well lately and whenever I experience new or strange symptoms, I'm always a little wary.

I'm hoping that the problems I'm experiencing right now are medication related.  If I could just learn to deal with issues as they come, I'd be a lot better off.  Instead, I do my best to live in denial for some things and just pretend that everything is fine.

I'm sure that part of the reason I'm feeling so poorly is that I'm not sleeping well.  I've always been a night person and it seems that I'm still awake after midnight most of the time.  My husband thinks that if I could just GO TO BED, turn off all the lights and the TV, I might be able to slow my mind down enough to get some rest.  I know he's right....but habits are hard to break, and, a girl with panic attacks has got to do what a girls gotta do!

Some other factors that are contributing weight, stress, too much caffeine,  work, and a recent upper respiratory infection that is STILL hanging around.  Put all this together with the worry of my upcoming scan and the fact that I am prone to depression....and you end up with a terrible mess!  Yep, that's me right now!

The thing is, I KNOW that God is in control!  I really do know this.  But for some reason, this knowledge doesn't always bring me comfort.  And so, I beg you for your prayers.  Thank you!


scmom (Barbara) said...

You are always in my prayers. ;-)

Have no anxiety at all, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God.

Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus."
Ph 4: 6-7

Esther G. said...

Nancy, of course you are in my prayers!! I am reading a little book my mom recently sent me The Holy Name of Jesus by Father Paul Sullivan. Try prayerfully saying Jesus' name "Jesus, Jesus, Jesus" or just "Jesus, I trust in You" and by His powerful and holy name He will come to your assistance. This will also bring you peace.

Nancy said...

Barbara...Thank you! It's funny, I almost mentioned that scripture in my post! I want so much to be anxiety free...I really, really do. Your prayers mean more than you know!

Esther....heartfelt thanks to you too! It would do me well to repeat "Jesus, I trust in you" over and over. It would also do me well to pick up St. Faustina's Diary and read a little. I truly am blessed with some wonderful online friends!

Cathy said...

Praying for you! It may help to offer up the anxiety to Christ. This always helps me. He understands your fear and anxiety. Its great to know that our God is so much bigger than all of it. Will keep you in my prayers :)

Donna-Marie Cooper O'Boyle said...

Nancy, Be not afraid! If I may make a couple of suggestions, try your best to cut back on the caffeine. As much as you think you need it, it is wreaking havoc on your body - cut back to nothing! Start decreasing now and you will cut down on the panic and sleepless nights, I guarantee it. That, along with everyone's prayers and your trust in God. Offer God this cross of anxiety that you are experiencing and ask Him to help you. He knows that you believe in Him and He's right along side you. Trust Him and His dear Blessed Mother. Lean on Mary. In the night when you wake up, grab on to your Rosary beads and pray slowly and breathe slowly until the anxiety passes. You may want to try drinking a hot cup of chamomile tea before bed to settle things down. Don't be on the computer at night. What?!? Yes, that's right. :) The computer and even TV messes with your body and makes it harder to settle down at night. Just getting off the computer at least an hour before bedtime will help. I hope you don't mind my advice. I hope at least some may be of help. I'll be praying too.
hugs and prayers,

Jennifer Castro said...

Prayers sent. Someone once told me that worry is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere. I am a worrier too.:)

Sarah Oldham said...

Praying for you to be restful - at least in Spirit.

I also suffer from anxiety - it may not be obvious to some. I know I'm on the fringe when I keep repeating myself . . . I'm not mad, just trying to stay focused on anything to stop the madness from creeping in. I usually focus on praying "Hail, Mary" because it has a soothing rhythm to it - and, "Jesus, I trust in You" because I do!!

Sarah Oldham said...

Definitely cut the caffeine down to nearly nothing. Decaf has some remnants of caffeine, but it won't hurt you as much as all you are taking in presently. A little in the morning and nothing later. I have one, maybe two cups in the morning and then water/milk/juice for the rest of the day. I have slept wonderfully since I cut back and only in the AM!!! You can do it. Caffeine increases your anxiety and appetite . . . Many prayers for you.

Sarah Oldham said...

Oh, and if you can, take a brisk walk when you are feeling anxious. It works wonders for me. Walk fast and pray the rosary or DM chaplet. Anything - just move your butt! Most of what we are anxious about is ridiculous - you may as well drop some calories while you learn to realize anxiety is ridiculous. LOVE YOU!!

Abbey said...

It's amazing how much power "worry" can play on us all. I am praying that God will release you from the worry so that you can face this challenge with FATIH & CONFIDENCE!

Blessings, Nancy,

Mary333 said...

Praying for you, Nancy!