Monday, December 1, 2008

Up all night!

I really dislike taking the steroids before the chemo. I know that they are supposed to help me fend off any allergic reaction that might be hovering over me after the poison enters my veins...but...they pretty much keep me up all night!! I was still awake at 4:15am this morning! I finally dozed off and then Dan woke me up at about 6:20am as everybody has to be out of the house by 7:30am at the latest! I had 4 whole days and still forgot to wash Nathan's uniform pants...(he used to have two pairs of pants....but we wont' talk about the "high quality" of fabric that they use to make these $28 pants...that he blew out the knees already!!!!). Anyway, they are on quick wash and hopefully they'll dry quickly too. He can always wear his uniform shorts...it's 58 degrees right now...but it will be close to 75 at least by the time I pick them up from school.

My last chemo is at 8:00am. I'm anxious and thrilled at the same time. I'm so glad it will be over...but at the same time...it's hard to voluntarily (technically) go there when I know what the next week will bring.

I started that special Christmas Novena to St. Andrew yesterday. I bet you can guess what my intentions are!!!

12 comments:

Therese said...

I prayed for you at Adoration last night. May this last dose go quickly through so this can all be a memory! {{{HUGS}}}

scmom (Barbara) said...

Offering up my hardships for you today. I have an awful cold, but I will not complain!

aspiring said...
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Bird, Frizzy and Our Little Yaya said...

I am sorry you got little sleep I hate watching the clock. Ugh! However, how exciting that it is your last chemo tx. I will continue to keep you in my prayers for healing and strength.

Frank said...

My mom always has problems with the steroids keeping her awake for a couple of days around chemo. sessions. Hang in there! This is the last one for you. It'll all get easier now!

Rebecca said...

I will be praying for your intentions in the days and weeks ahead. Love, Rebecca

aspiring said...

Funny, I was checking in on my regular sites before turning in. I almost left you a message just to let you know I was thinking about you and your post-chemo night. I had wanted to leave a brief 'hi, goodnight, hope all is ok' message, too, but decided I might be making a nuisance of myself. Then, lo and behold, I checked my site also and found your most welcome note. Thank you!

You raised a thought about 'praying for self'... hmmm...I'm thinking... You HAVE TO pray for yourself as one of your Lord's servants in this world. It's an obligation as well as a privilege. 'Prayer for self' can seem unpalatable or distasteful for many reasons, all of which is chaff. You might ask: WHO is it that counts on your fitness for your work and for Jesus' work through you? Jesus does. And WHO is it that would wish you unfit for your work and for Jesus' work through you? The deceiver does. WHO is influencing you when you struggle with this question of 'prayer for self'? You might give the question directly to Jesus, Himself, in prayer. He'll step you through 'prayer for self' as it relates specifically to you, what He wants of you, and wants you to know, and how He wants you to pray, etc. I suspect you might be surprised at just how bold you'll be led to be - be it on behalf of yourself, your children or husband, your parish or town, or the very Kingdom of God. Moment by moment and day by day, Jesus is the most wonderful companion and advisor. DO tell Him what you want (desires) and what you don't want (fears) in prayer because it is there, your vulnerabilities, that He can get down to brass tacks with you and guide you and strengthen you and use you to your full and joyful potential.

Oh Nancy - apologies in advance if this is unwelcome or too long-winded for your taste.

+ in Jesus' Name, aspiring +

Chris said...

I'm glad to hear you had your last treatment. I pray that you will be feeling yourself quickly! Offering my day for you.
Oh, I like your new festive Christmas look on the blog!

Tracy said...

Praying for you!!

Christie Groth said...

I hope all is going well with your last chemo. I pray this will be the LAST ever. I admire your strength in sharing our journey with us all. I'm sure it will be a reminder of the courage within at some point in all our lives.

Melody K said...

Nancy, this is the first time I have read your blog. Praying for you to get through your chemo okay, and for this to be the last one. Coincidentally my supervisor at work started what is hopefully his last round of chemo yesterday. I know it can get pretty rough, hang in there!

Esther said...

Nancy, you are in my prayers. Reading your posts have made me understand the sufferings those sick with cancer have to endure. As I write, three people my family knows are seriously ill. We are praying for Blessed Mother Marianne Cope and Blessed Damien's intercession for healing. May all of you be healed.