Friday, July 10, 2009

Coincidence???? I think not!

A funny thing happened to me today. I'm pretty sure that God orchestrated it all. Every day I'm more and more convinced that He is interested in everything about us....in every detail! Consider this....

This morning, I woke up in what I would call an "off" mood. I was in no rush to get dressed for work. My usual hours are 8am to 430pm but I was dragging. By 7:48am, I still wasn't walking out the door! I was feeling a certain spiritual heaviness that I couldn't really put my finger on. Driving to work, I started counting the days weeks months since I'd been to confession. I'm embarrassed to say, but I haven't been since right before Nathan's First Communion (May 9th)!
So, I talked to God as I drove and went over all the things I could think of that I needed to confess. If I do this, I have an easier time remembering everything I need to remember when I finally do get into that confessional.

As I reflected, I realized that I'm always confessing the same thing. Pride is the root sin for me. Everything else comes from that. It's frustrating, really. I just can't seem to move past this issue. When I got to my desk, for some reason I started searching through my files for the Litany of Humility that I used to have taped to my computer so that I could read it daily. When our office moved last year....I never put it back up. For some reason, I felt like I had to find it RIGHT AWAY! It was lost forever so I printed off another one. Phew! After reading it (and praying it) a few times, I felt better. I must say though....it seems almost impossible to achieve any of those things unless you're living in a cloistered monastery....but I digress!
I finally got settled into my desk and thought I might catch the last of the EWTN mass. To my surprise, I was just in time for the homily!

Do you have any idea what the homily was about????? Do ya, do ya?????? Humility! Guess what Father read as part of his homily.......THE LITANY OF HUMILITY! Don't you think that's amazing? It's as though this homily was just for me!

Now, one would think after an experience like that, I would get.to.confession.quick!!! Well, I could have gone to another church across town at lunchtime, but, I chose to listen to a Rosary CD instead. I will go Sunday before mass.

There is one part of the Litany that has convicted me the most.......from the fear of being forgotten....deliver me, Jesus. I think there's a reason for that.

****Stay tuned for "Coincidence????? I think not! Part 2*******

5 comments:

Aussie Therese said...

don't you just love it when God speaks directly to you?

Thanks for the reminder Nancy. I need to go to confession again too.

Anne said...

Wonderful story! I can't wait for the rest!

Elizabeth said...

LOVE that littany....
and I need to get to confession, too. Blessings

~ Judy ~ said...

Wow Nancy...VERY powerful!
Scott Hahn told a story once of confessing the same sins again and again...and the priest said, "Well Scott, what new sins would you rather commit?"
Point being: We tend to fail and commit sins in conjunction with our state in life...
Not an excuse to sin...just a thought to help us understand ourselves better :)
Looking forward to your Part 2!

aspiring... said...

I love this, Nancy ! - saying so nonchalantly, "...I'm pretty sure that God orchestrated it all..." So often it's true!

And, "...Don't you think that's amazing?..." Oh...Yes! Every time! I will never get used to, never take for granted, His loving and effective involvement with me. It's always surprising, always delightful.

As for confession? You go girl :) ! Sunday it is...:) ! You're also on the right track, looking at and accounting for the past, discerning any sore spots using that litany. Besides being a source for prayer, it is also a good guide, a good sort of self-inventory checklist if you will. It's pretty comprehensive - though concise - not to mention pointed.

His gift of discernment such as yours is as important to your present and future, as His gift of absolution via confession is to your past. You really are onto something I feel, and are an inspiration with this.

Well done! And a wonderful post this is, too. As others are, I'm looking forward to Part 2.