Do you ever get the feeling that the world is falling apart? I mean, seriously. Do you ever feel as though life as we know it is destined to implode?
I am a news junkie. I hate that about myself. I can't be "unplugged" from some kind of news outlet for very long without feeling withdrawal symptoms. I wish I could just trust God and let it all go. But, alas, I can't. I think some of it comes from my tendency towards anxiety and panic. More than likely, it's a control issue. I feel that I need to know what's going on in order to know what to do. The thing is....knowing what's going on in NO way protects me from it. It doesn't really change anything. God is still God, He is still on His throne and I am essentially powerless to alter the course of most of the issues I'm concerned about.
Have no idea what I'm talking about? Here are a few recent news headlines that have me completely perplexed as to why God allows us to exist anymore:
Hotel in London removes Bibles from all of it's rooms and replaces it with the book "Fifty Shades of Grey". You're kidding me, right? How have we come to this? Hotels already supply pornographic movies and bedbugs (as well as filthy bedspreads), but somehow we now need immoral books?
Al Qaeda forming suicide cells to make jihad in the name of God. I realize that this is nothing new but I would like to thank the New York Times (can you sense my sarcasm?) for reminding me that having Syria actively in the mix has bumped things up another level. This should be fun.
Government is spying on every single American. I highly doubt that the government is interested in anything I do or say, but isn't it nice to know the Imperial Federal Government of the U.S.A. has overstepped it's boundaries of power in order to keep track of your private life. It isn't enough that the U.S. Census invaded our privacy by making us answer questions that have NO bearing on the number of people in the country....it isn't enough that the use of GPS systems in cars and phones can keep track of you NO MATTER where you go....it isn't enough that they can tap your phone, see your bank account and watch you undress by way of satellites! I mean...WHAT is private anymore?
Drought and famine. Where have we heard that before? In those Bibles that the hotel in London is removing...that's where!
State systems for overseas voters vulnerable to hacking. Great. Just great.
Iran to deploy warships in the Atlantic. Best news I've heard all day......NOT!
Gay rights group plans "kiss in" against Chik-Fil-A. Sigh. And in a related story....Rosanne Barr wishes CANCER on Chik-Fil-A customers! Can I ask a question here....Why on earth is Rosanne Barr's opinion making the news?
S.F. Library installs computer privacy screens for more discreet porn watching. And this is supposed to make parents feel better? I don't think so.
Superbug resistance follows seasonal drug use. Lovely. Soon there won't be anything strong enough to fight off this stuff.
11 year old catches plane from Manchester to Rome without ticket or passport. But I have to basically strip down to my skivvies in order to get on a plane...or I can't carry on more than 3 oz of shampoo because they'll think I'm a terrorist. Dare I ask where this kids parents were?
Over 200 human fetuses found in Russian forest. Souls will spend eternity in hell for this!
All of these stories are RECENT...as in the last few days! How have we gotten to this point in history? Our culture is so desensitized to these types of reality that we don't even blink an eye after reading them. We, as a society, move right along in our daily lives as if none of this happening. I honestly don't know what's the right thing to do. Would it be better to not read/watch the news and pretend that it isn't going on? Is it better to bring it into the forefront here in my corner of the internet...in my corner of the world to bring more awareness? I don't know. I really don't.
I have tried so hard over the last several months to be more positive. I've tried not to dwell on all the evil in the world. I try to keep things in perspective and just keep praying. I try to keep my mouth shut unless I am defending my faith (for that, I will NEVER keep my mouth shut!). I try not be judgemental....but when I'm defending my faith...sometimes, it seems that way even when it isn't my intention.
Sometimes, I get the urge to move my family to the middle of nowhere. Grow my own food, live off the grid and hide. I know that's not what God has called me to do...but I still think about it.
I guess I'll just keep doing what I'm doing. I'll keep on defending the Catholic Church, defending unborn babies and the elderly and sick. I'll keep praying for peace, for humility, for more gratitude for all the GOOD things (although they are sometimes hard to find in the news) that I've been given. I will ask for the protection of the Communion of Saints, our Blessed Mother, and St. Michael. I will keep receiving the sacraments, especially the Eucharist and Confession. I will continue to take care of my family, go to work, do the laundry and all the things that my state in life entails. My only choice is to let God take care of the big stuff.